Not Getting Hung Up

Is one of my faults. I get hung up on minor details, believe the lie that they are not minor, and sabotage my goals of bonding and teaching my children the big picture. The truth is that there are enough minor issues that make it the big picture, but getting upset because my husband let a teenager cut off some jeans horribly and then wear them, is just a distraction. I cannot worry about the petty things, because it is exhausting. Yes, the shorts will be evened out before he can wear them again. No, he will not be making shorts to avoid having to wear the other shorts. Rigid thinking, unreasonable reason, illogical logic, and processing problems play into the minor details that require me to stop and think, and chose what the best response is. I actually need to learn to not respond. I have always been very intuitive, observative, and efficient. It makes me hyper-vigilant at times and for that I am working on trying to be more relaxed and not worry about what could happen, but rather what is happening, what has happened and why. In education advocacy, in theraputic services, in parenting traumatized children, there are advantages to seeing the next step, staying ahead, and being proactive versus reactive in decisions. In the family life that is not always the case, not if there are people that are lower functioning and always going to do things against the grain. For years they have tried getting the triange peg shaved down to fit into the circle hole, but I need to make the hole bigger because it is too frustrating and inneffective to think that the peg is going in. I just doesnt work. What is my problem and what is theirs? I have one thing to do with these kids and it is to be their mom. Not all moms recognize and have superficial visions for their kids. And if they do, they do not have 8 kids of which half have disabilities. It is okay if my kids cut offs are 4 inches different. He survived the day and the sun has rose again. His mercies are new each morning. I cannot believe the lies that there is greater value in the appearance of some ratty cut offs than me being a kind mother that encourages relationship over materialism or concerns of what others may think. The only true judge is God, and he has given this life to us. I need to choose to obey and set example. Choose joy. Choose happiness, be that model for this home and love my kids, teach them patience, love, and understanding. Keep it up because the Lord is on my side, keep it up there is good news on the inside. Don't get hung up on the little could have been should have been don't get stuck in what won't be here in the end. What's of value and who is the judge, stomp out the lies and do not budge... On who is your King and what is his rule, who is the boss and who is the fool, Don't get hung up on the lies and the mistakes, for you make them yourself and those chains have to break. For bondage to my own kingdom has failed once again, been washed by the blood of the lamb. He saves my soul and can save yours too, he takes my mistakes and gives me life new. Don't get hung up on what doesn't count, Christ paid the price at any amount.